I always doubt my friends, almost every moment, if not that, every day. If not that, every week. I don't know why I'm always paranoid, I just am. I guess I just never really got so close to anyone. It's always nice, though, to be reassured of the friends you have. This paranoia, though... I hope it won't be a problem. I hope it'll go away soon. Because right now, I am so sure of my friends, how trustworthy they are, how they always have my back, how I can depend on them as much as they depend on me... and although this feeling will be fleeting, if I record it here, I'm almost certain my paranoia will soon diminish to nothingness.
I can't push them away, and I can't close myself off because of second guesses.. I'm already pushing away someone subtly, I can tell... They don't know it now, so while they don't, I'll try and grab hold of it as much as I can... It's not too late.
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